Why I… books 1-3 by Colette Davison :: Re-Release
Title: Why I Left You, Why I Need You, Why I Trust You
Series: Why I bks 1,2,3
Author: Colette Davison
Publisher: Self Published
Length: 296 pages, 320 pages, 300 pages
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Why I Left You
Guilt has torn them apart…
…but can they have a second chance?
Jamie is struggling with university, money and depression.
The last thing he needs is Brett, the guy who walked out on him four years ago. Yet, he could be just what Jamie needs.
Brett has his own way of dealing with heartache.
Ever since Jamie left him, he’s been running away from commitment. But when he Jamie comes back into his life, he’s forced to re-examine everything.
Brett and Jamie are drawn back into each other’s arms by an undeniable spark.
But unless they can come to terms with the past, their relationship won’t survive the present.
Why I Left You is a MM
hurt/comfort, friends to lovers romance with explicit language and steamy scenes between gay men. It’s the first in a series of standalone romances with a happy ever after.
Why I Need You
The truth can break them…
…but so can the lies.
Fin has put his life on hold to raise his little sister.
Following the death of their parents, he’s convinced her well-being is all that matters, even if it’s at his expense.
Noah has been living a lie for years.
After being publicly outed and kicked out from home, he’s ready to let go of his anger and finally be free.
A chance meeting between Fin and Noah opens endless possibilities. Can they be together despite all their baggage? Or will the truth crush them beyond repair?
Why I Need You is a MM hurt/comfort, insta-dad romance with explicit language and steamy scenes between gay men. It’s the second in a series of standalone romances with a happy ever after.
Why I Trust You
Their past can bring them together…
…or it can haunt them.
Martin is a funny, larger than life guy.
Quick to help others with their pain, but hiding his own, his life consists of a string of break-ups.
Ryan needs a way to leave his abusive boyfriend.
Working with Martin is supposed to help him raise enough funds to escape. It’s just business. With an ocean between them, it couldn’t be anything more. Could it?
One is close enough to giving up on love. The other wounded by it.
Can they trust each other? Or will the distance, hurt, and abuse get in the way of their happy ever after?
Why I Trust You is a MM hurt/comfort romance with explicit language and steamy scenes between gay men. It’s the third in a series of standalone romances with a happy ever after.
***Trigger warnings: Domestic violence and abuse***
Re-read Our Reviews Of The Books
Why I Left You
Get ready for an emotional rollercoaster. The author has done a fantastic job of building real characters that are broken, and yet strong enough to go through the daily grind. This book will make you smile, frown, laugh and cry. The balance of emotions is perfect. And even through the dark moments, I found the author managed not to take us too dark.
We meet Brett four years after he and Jamie his high school sweetheart made love for the first time. That night that changed both their lives forever and not in a good way. Brett has not let anyone into his heart since that fateful day. Satisfying his needs with one-night stands, that left him cold.
Then Brett comes face to face with Jamie and his whole world is turned upside down.
Jamie tried to kill himself four years ago and is struggling to keep his head above water. He suffers deep depression which threatens to go out of control once more when he comes face to face with Brett.
Both initially resent each other, and we watch as they try to deal with their unravelling emotions, as well as the strong attraction they still have for one another. Brett is frightened to ask Jamie about that night four years ago, he does not want to spoil their budding relationship. And Jamie can not bring himself to talk about it and goes within himself.
They must learn to trust themselves and trust their new bond if things can continue between them.
I Really liked the Authors description of the characters Emotions, I felt the hurt, pain, hope and love oozing off the page. The story is nicely paced, and you are that invested in the characters futures that you do not want to put the book down.
Why I Need You
Why I need you is such a heart warming story of two guys with huge baggage they are carrying. We were introduced to Fin in book one (Why I left you). Fin?s parents were killed in a car accident and he left to go home.
We pick up Fin?s story where he has settled into a routine of bringing up his 8-year-old sister Olivia, Working and studying. He has no time for fun or meeting anyone else and has convinced himself that all he wants out of life is to Bring up Olivia the best way he can. That is until he is called into work at the restaurant on his night off.
On the same night Noah is at the restaurant celebrating his ultra conservative fathers Birthday. Noah has done a good job of hiding his sexuality, until this fateful night he set eyes on the waiter named Fin. And is called out for looking at the hot waiter by his sister?s faience and all hell breaks loose.
What follows is a heart breaking yet heart warming story of both young men, trying to build a relationship and dealing with their personal baggage. Both reluctant to be fully open to the other.
Noah slowly comes out of his shell from being oppressed by his parents. Fin realises it is ok to take time out for his own happiness. Each of them do not believe their relationship will have a happy ending. Noah thinks Fin will lose patients with him slowly coming out of his shell. And Fin holds back on telling Noah that he is his sisters guardian, believing Noah will run a mile, not wanting to be tied down to a readymade family.
I really like the way Colette shows us the internal battles each character is going through. Both Characters are sweet and sexy, and made for each other. Neither one of them is more broken or stronger than the other, like is so many stories. I love the humour Olivia and Martin bring to the story. It is a heart warming story without being too soft and sloppy.
This is only Colette?s second novel and I am so excited to see how her writing journey develops.
Why I Trust You
This series just keeps getting better. I love the other two books in the series but this one is my favorite so far.
We met Martin in the last book as Noah?s friend. Martin has it all, more money he can spend, beautiful lifestyle and house but he can not manage to meet a guy who wants him for who he is and not what?s on his bank account.
Ryan Lives in the US, with an abusive partner, who has broken him mentally and physically. He wants out, but how can he achieve this without being found out?
The two meets by email and phone chat when Ryan answers a add from Martin who is looking for an artist to do the graphics on his latest mobile game.
We are taken on a journey that is sometimes brutal and very emotional, but there are also light and funny moments, as the boys navigate their budding relationship. They have a huge mountain of problems to overcome. One being Ryan?s eventual escape from Zane, he manages to make it to the UK, and things look good for a while.
We find out just how controlling Zane was towards Ryan, as he tries to put his life back together with the help of Martin.
Whilst Martin offers Ryan financial help. Ryan turns him down, It is important to him that he makes his own way, so he is able to reclaim control of his life.
This story is so well balanced between the good times and the bad times. And for a refreshing change, the story is not based around miscommunication or even lack of communication. Its about the two characters having the strength to go for what they want. Slowly working through Ryan?s issues and problems such as immigration and long-distance love. I will not deny that I had a few tears near the end. But I can not say anything more as it would spoil the end for you.
I really liked the pace of the story, it did not seem rushed at all, There was no magic wand to wave away all their obstacles, they had to work and fight their way through them. Both characters had good sense of humor, and they just fitted together perfectly.
I am feeling sad that the book is finished.
(From Why I Left You)
Holy shit. Jamie was kissing him. Brett’s head told him to back off and walk away, but his body remembered those lips and how much he’d once enjoyed having them pressed against his own. His body wanted to lean into the kiss and respond with four years’ worth of regret. For a few precious moments, he let himself give in to desire. His heart hammered against his ribs, desperate to escape his body and reclaim what it had lost. His fingers tingled as he wrapped an arm around Jamie’s shoulders and held him tightly, his thumb making small circles on Jamie’s shirt.
Then his brain kicked into gear again. What the fuck was he doing? This was the guy who had ripped his heart out in the worst possible way. Besides, Jamie was clearly at least half-gone. What they were doing was a mistake at best.
He pulled away, breathing heavily as he stared at Jamie, whose pupils were blown wide.
“You’re drunk,” Brett said in the most matter-of-fact tone he could manage.
Jamie curled his upper lip and turned away, shaking his head. It was dumb for Brett to follow him, but he did it anyway. They’d been best friends long before they’d realised they were attracted to each other. Brett had always looked out for Jamie, back when they’d lived next door to each other. Those instincts kicked in.
“Let me walk you home.”
Jamie stopped and rounded on him, fists clenched, teeth gritted. “Don’t pretend you give a shit.”
Brett blinked. “You’re drunk. You need someone to make sure you get home okay. What about one of the guys you came here with? The one you were dancing with?”
“You gave up the right to worry about what happens to me when you left.”
Colette’s personal love story began at university, where she met her future husband. An evening of flirting, in the shadow of Lancaster castle, eventually led to a fairytale wedding. She’s enjoying her own ‘happy ever after’ in the north of England with her husband, two beautiful children and her writing.